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angry mind, angry thoughts
angry room, so, angry me


angry mom, angry dad,
angry home, so, angry me,

angry words, angry conversations

angry looks, so, angry me

angry eyes, so, they cry
angry stomach, so, it shouts

angry me, so, angry me
angry me, so, I am sad
-Ankita :( :(

Yellow daisy, sparkling eyes and Punam 

she came suddenly when I was chitchatting with my friends.

she had a different style for asking money from people.

she was with a black plastic bag on her head.

believe me that look was scary.

i got scared and she started laughing. she enjoyed it lot.

she asked for money but her eyes were on my yellow daisy.

she was so innocent that she asked for both the things.

money may be for her family but flower was only for her.

I hesitated a bit, but couldn't do much about it.

I gave her my flower as I wanted to see what does she do with it..

she was so happy to get the flower. 

that made me happy and that made her my small, little friend

I asked her about herself, she answered back but she was busy playing with the flower..

she was experimenting with the flower, trying to put it on her hair.

she doesn't know her age, she doesn't go to school, she stays in Masjid near Bandra station..

but she had something that made me realized a lot of things..

her innocent priceless smile and her happiness was so amusing.. 

she found her happiness in the smallest possible thing ever.

sometimes we are so busy achieving our goals that we ignore the small little things that make us feel happy.

her happy face made me feel so happy, she made my evening..

our first meeting was so meaningful that I am going to meet her again,

 may be she will teach me some more things about happy living.  

happiee living people.. :)

-Ankita

  

let me sign- Rob Pattinson

Oohh 

Oohh 

Standing there by the broken tree, 

Her hands were all twisted, she was pointing at me. 

I was damned by the light coming out of her eyes. 

She spoke with a voice that disrupted the sky. 

She said 'Walk on over yeah to the bit of shade, 

I will wrap you in my arms and you'll know you've been saved' 

Let me sign, let me sign, can't fight the devil so just let me sign. 

I was out for a drink in a soho bar 

The air was smoked out liked a cheap cigar 

She rose out of her seat like a painted ghost 

She was the woman that I wanted the most 

As she reached for my arm I gave her my hand 

I said 'Lay me down easy let me understand' 

Let me sign, let sign, can't fight the devil so just let me sign. 

As I walked through the door she was still in my head 

As I entered the room she was laid there in bed 

She reached out for me all twisted in black 

I was on my way down, never coming back 

let me sign, let me sign, can't fight the devil so just let me sign. 

let me sign, let me sign, can't fight the devil so just let me sign.

never think- Rob pattinson

Never think 

What's in your heart 

What's in our home 

So I won't 

You'll learn to hate me 

But still call me baby 

Oh Love 

So call me by my name 

And save your soul 

save your soul 

Before you're too far gone 

Before nothing can be done 

I'll try to decide when 

She'll lie in the end 

I ain't got no fight in me 

In this whole damn world 

Telling you to hold off 

She said hold on 

It's the one thing that I've known 

Once I put my coat on 

And how I know it's all wrong 

She's standing outside holding me 

Saying oh please 

I'm in love 

I'm in love 

Girl save your soul 

Save your soul 

Before you're too far gone 

And before nothing can be done 

'Cause without me 

You got it all 

So hold on 

Without me you got it all 

So hold on 

Without me you got it all 

Without me you got it all 

So hold on 

Without me you got it all 

So hold on 

Without me you got it all 

So hold on 

Hold on

Random 32


getting hurt by someone is always better than hurting someone,
waiting for someone is always better than making someone wait for us
crying for someone is always better than making someone cry for us
remembering someone is always better than forgetting someone
-Ankita :)

Random 76..


they say people are different and its not possible to figure them out, is it possible to figure out yourself before you figuring out others??
i ask this question several times to myself, sometimes i am strong, sometime weakest, sometimes practical, sometimes over emotional, sometimes expressive, sometimes very closed, sometimes understanding, sometimes stubborn, sometimes very happy, sometimes sad.. with such complexity in my own self, i try to understand people, continue to manage things. hope one day i will be able to understand myself and then other people.. hopefully!!
-Ankita.

i just wanna spend my life with you!!!

Like a dream you can' t explain love can chase a beating of your heart
Like the sunshining in the rain love can make your whole world fall apart

All i wanted now
I just wanna spend my life with you
Time will show me how
Suddenly everything has turned me inside out
Suddenly love is the thing that I can' t live without

You are my dream my love my life
I just wanna spend my life with you
You are the one that makes me smile
I just wanna spend my life with you

God I love somehow... I just wanna spend my life with you
You can show me how

Suddenly everything has turned me inside out
Suddenly love is the thing that i can' t live without

You are my dream my love my life
I just wanna spend my life with you
You are the one that makes me smile
I just wanna spend my life with you

What have you done to me?
Is this how its meant to be
Can' t control this feeling in my heart
I can see better days glowing inside your eyes
And I know you feel it in your heart

All I wanted now
I just wanna spend my life with you
Time will show me how
Suddenly everything has turned me inside out
Suddenly loves the thing that i can' t live without

You are my dream my love my life
I just wanna spend my life with you
You are the one that makes me smile
I just wanna spend my life with you

Love is a crazy thing
Its like when you wanna sing
And the words are deep inside your soul
When somebody comes along together you sing a song
You just let the music take control

And i wanted now
i just wanna spend my life with you
Time will show me how
Suddenly everything has turned me inside out
turned me inside out
Suddenly loves the thing that i can' t live without

You are my dream my love my life
I just wanna spend my life with you
You are the one that makes me smile
I just wanna spend my life with you

महिलांसाठी राखीव 

ट्रेनमधील ladies compartment ही एक जादूची पोतडीच म्हणावी लागेल. एक मुलगी असुनही मला नेहमी प्रवास करताना ह्याबद्दल अप्रूप वाटत आल आहे. वर्षानुवर्ष ट्रेनने प्रवास करणार्या ह्या बायकांचा डबा म्हणजे त्यांच्या आयुष्याचा एक अविभाज्य घटक झालेला असतो. काय काय होत नाही ह्यामध्ये??  

भाजी चिरन्यापासून ते जप करेपर्यंत, अभ्यास ते अवांतर वाचन, शिवनकाम एवढच नव्हे तर कपडे , पिन्स वगैरे गोष्टी खरेदी करण्याची हक्काची जागा म्हणजे ladies  डब्बा..

रोज एक ठराविक ट्रेनने प्रवास करणार्या बायकांचा मग एक ग्रुप बनतो.रोज तो ग्रुप त्याचवेळी त्याच ट्रेन मध्ये भेटतो. मग एकमेकांसाठी जागा धरण, त्या जागेवर बाकी कोणाला बसु न देण , वेगवेगले festivals साजरे करण, एकमेकिंची सुख- दुःख share करण हे सगल ओघाने आलच..

एकदा मी churchgate वरुण अँधेरीला येत असताना चार पाच बायका ट्रेनमध्ये गाण्याचा रियाझ करत होत्या. काही जनींचे सुर लागत होते काही उगाच ओरडत होत्या. आजुबाजुच्या बायका त्यांच्याकडे बघत हसत होत्या, त्यांना दाखवून चिडवत होत्या. पण त्या बायकांना काहीही फरक पडत नव्हता. एवढा स्वात्रंत्य ladies डब्बा सोडून अजुन कुठे मिळणार??

ladies  डब्बा म्हणजे प्रत्येक स्टेशन ला एक भान्दन ठरलेल..मग तो फर्स्ट क्लास असो किंवा सेकंड क्लास.. तो कलकलात सारखाच..

पण खर्या मैत्रीनीही ट्रेन मध्येच भेटतात.. वर्षानुवर्ष एकत्र प्रवास करीं ह्या बायका आयुष्यातील कितीतरी टप्पे देखिल एकत्रच पार करतात. 

किती विविधता असते ह्या बायकांमध्ये.. कॉलेज मधील मुलींपासून ते retire होत असणार्या बायकांपर्यंत , एखाद्या मोठ्या कंपनी ची CEO ते एखाद्या हॉस्पिटलची nurse किंवा आया, एखादी तरुण मुलगी आणि तिची आई किंवा एखाद तान्हा बाल आणि त्याची आई.

बोलण आणि बायका यांच तर अटूट नात आहे.. मग जर बायकांचाच डब्बा असेल तर काय.. बोलण्याला उधाण येत. अनेक बायका अनेक विषयांवर अनेक भाषांमध्ये एकत्र बोलत असतात.कधी लक्षपूर्वक त्याचा बोलण एकल ना तर त्या इतका मस्त टाइमपास नाही.tv वरील मालिका, मुलामुलिंचे अभ्यास, शाला , कॉलेज affairs (त्यांच्या भाषेत लफडी किंवा भानगडी), नवीन खरेदी केलेल्या वस्तु, दागिने,आणि हे कमी म्हणून की काय  भरिस भर नवरे हां कधीही न संपणारा विषय आहेच.

थोड्या young मुलींचे विषय थोड़े वेगले असत्तात.shopping , hot guys , practicles , canteen , boyfriends , crushes , affairs , सिनेमा ह्या आणि अनेकविध विषयांवर ह्या सगल्या अखंड बोलत असतात. ह्या मुलीचा टॉप किती  गोड़ आहे, किंवा ती किती गोरी आहे, नाहीतर फ़ोन आहेच गप्पा मारायला..

ज्या मुली कानात गाणी लावून किंवा मान खली घालून बसतात किंवा झोपलेल्या असतात त्यांच्या निरिक्षण शक्तीच्या अभावामुले मला त्यांची कीव कराविशी वाटते.. आजुबाजुला एवढ्या interesting गोष्टी चालू असताना ह्या एवढ्या नीरस कशा असू शकतात?so sad ..

तर थोडक्यात काय .. पुरुषांसाठी कायम कुतुहलाचा विषय असलेला हा ladies डब्बा.. त्यातील बायका, त्याचे विषय सतत असेच चालू राहणार..मग मेट्रो ट्रेन येवोत किंवा काहीही..

 म्हणुनच म्हणतात ना... महिलांसाठी राखीव !!!

-अंकिता      

My Mad Machines..  

Who says machines are different from humans?? who says that machines are only machines and nothing else?? according to me machines have the same amount of emotions, feelings, ego and all the personality traits that humans have. atleast my machines have..

my Computer. i call it Mr.PC. he a very good friend of mine.he has all my secrets in terms of data.he doesn't reveal it to anybody without my permission. he is with me for last 4 years now.i have made many projects and assignments with the help of my dear PC. still my PC is very moody. he has his own bad days like i have. in those 2 or 3 days he doesn't listen to anybody.. not even me. he refuses to start and i get stuck up badly. i think these 2 days he does meditation or something like that. and then comes back with a boom. he is also very mischievous as i get tired of requesting him to get started but he doesn't. finally i am left with no other option but to call a guy who looks after my PC and his condition in short.. doctor of my PC. he comes and asks for the problem.. i tell him my PC is not working. he goes to start the PC. at that exact time meditation period of my PC gets over and he gets started.so the PC doctor looks at me.. he is clueless... he thinks i like to trouble him so i call him every month.. i can read the expressions on his face as it has happened more than 5 times so far.. he is very frustrated with me..as he thinks i m illiterate and doesn't understand anything about computers.. :(

My dear ipod.. he is one of my basic needs.. food,cloths,shelter,chocolates, ice creams,money and my music in short my ipod.  but my ipod has lot of attitude problem as he doesnt like to be overused.. not even for a single day.. he is very delicate and private. one day i use him more than the regular usage time.. he immediately needs to have his power nap. in that particular period he doesn't respond at all.. so then i have to apologize to him saying that i wont do it again.. still i can not be sure about the result..so i have no other option but to wait till he finishes his power nap...

there are many more machines  with me which always show me that even they have feelings even more than humans.eg-  my phone has immense tolerance capacity.. i have literally thrown my phone on the ground, many times it has slipped from my hand but still.. my phone always works.. all i have to do is switch it off for 2 minutes and then switch it on..:) my TV remote is self obsessed.. he likes when people search for him or they panic when they don't find him.. so he always hides in such a place where people wont be able to find him easily..my fridge likes to scare my family members.. so he makes weird noises at nights and scares everybody..  my dadi still doesnt understand that who makes these noises at nights and gets scared.. my fridge loves it so he always make noises when my dadi is around him..

many machines... many personalities... all they try and say is we are not only machines.. we are much more than that..so you all better treat us like that. have you tried to find out how is your mad machine and what does it say to you?? ;)

-Ankita

White Horse Lyrics

Say you're sorry, that face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you

Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known
I should have known

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now

And its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late to catch me now

The women in my life

My grandma, actually my modern grandma, because she does all those things which are not expected from her. Supporting granddaughters in their love affairs, watching cricket match with us and abusing the opposite team are some of them. She always was a working lady. She has worked for 32 years. Then retired. She is the most respected member of my family. She actually runs the entire house, from plumbing work till the important financial decisions in the family. At the age of 70 also, she dances with us, makes fun of grandpa, helps mom, gives advice to dad, only question I have is, where does she get this energy from??

My sweet loving sister, a unique character on her own. Age 16, maturity of age 18 or may be 20. A smart, intelligent, naughty girl. A girl who has her own opinions, her own views and a confidence to stand by them, emotional yet sorted. Sometimes she gives advices to me as well. Favourite of her group, favourite of my family. Watching her smile is priceless. Watching her cry can make you cry. A hyperactive, confident girl who is getting ready for the new challenges of the world. Only question I have is, what is there which gives her the confidence to do all these things??

24 hours on duty. When I was a little I used to think this term is specially developed for my momma. Because I have always seen her working 24 hours. Perfection runs in her blood. Independence is her style. Confidence is her second name. Balanced thinking comes naturally to her. She is an efficient worker in the office, A responsible daughter, sister, an understanding wife, a caring mother, a loving daughter in law. Whenever I talk to her, I feel relaxed. I cannot hide anything from her. She is the support system of the family .the only question I have is how does she manage to play all these roles? How does she manage everything so perfectly, without getting bored?

I think the answer is womanhood. Women are made like that. They can sort out the most difficult problem, they can tackle any situation. The more men underestimate them, stronger they become.  

They say women are the most complicated in the world to understand. They are like a mystery. Yes we are, we are sensitive, confident, understanding, independent, responsible and so complicated. Deep and more meaningful things are difficult to understand right??

-  Ankita

my all-time favorite song!!


Love story!!


We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh'Cause we were both young when I first saw you 

It’s like…so..

It’s like breaking glass in my heart when you talk to her

It’s like tons of butterflies flying in my stomach when you look at me

It’s like slowly my heart sinks in there when you smile

It’s like flying in the air when you hold my hand

I dream about you, even though I am awake,

I think about you, even though you are present

This never ending thing goes on,

I don’t even intend to stop

I look at you, I smile, and you smile back

You go ahead, but I am stuck there

Maybe forever

This feeling is new, doesn’t have any name

I even don’t know, whether you feel the same

But I don’t care, you are the reason I look beautiful,

You are the reason I feel beautiful

So let this feeling remain here, let me dream about you

Let the glasses break, let the butterflies fly

Let the heart sink and and let me fly with you high and high.

-Ankita :)